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Monday, August 7, 2017

Blue Hour ~ Dawn



'I rise before the dawn and cry for help; I have put my hope in your word.'
~Psalm 119:147~

               Andrea stirred at the tickle on her cheek. She turned, moaned at her stiff neck; where had she fallen asleep this time? She brushed her eyes open with a hand, then felt the warm breath across her face. "What're you doing here, girl?"
               Andrea's eyes slid open, the smile already across her face. "Terry."
               She pulled him close by his collar and gave him the long version of the kiss on her cheek. She was still smiling when they broke it off, even as she took in his weary eyes. Weary, yet tense. Wonder where he could've gotten those from.
               "What's the time?" Andrea stretched, kinking herself out of the left nook of the couch.
               "Six-twenty." Terry straightened up, his features revealed in the smooth beginnings of daylight. It was coming so early now...
               "What're you doing?" He looked down at her, that blasted black cowlick falling over his broad forehead. It made him look too cute, even when he was angry with her. "Why are you here?"
               "Because I love you." Andrea told him matter-of-factly. Her eyes trailed by toward the window. There Frank sat, his head nodding to the side, June tucked in at his feet. "You father just happens to be a side-effect of that."
               "He should be in bed." Terry shook his head, rubbing a palm into his eyes. "You should be at home, where it's safe. Nobody's where they should be!"
               "You wanna wake him!" Andrea hissed, getting her stiff legs to support her. "We only managed to settle down after four. It was a restless night."
               "It is ever anything else?" Terry turned from her, gazing aimlessly toward the kitchen for a moment. June had stirred by this point, stretching and coming up to nuzzle Terry's hand. Well, at least someone was happy.
               Frank and I spent the night safe behind a door. Andrea remembered. While Terry walks raw through the thick of it. And he's worried about ME????
               Andrea walked up behind her boyfriend and looped her arms around his waist. She rested against his shoulder a moment, before. "Do me a favor, hm?"
              "What is it?" Terry asked after a pause.
              "Come see how beautiful the sunrise is." Andrea didn't wait for an answer. Just put his hand in hers and led him back through the front door, past the bars and down the steps. June followed, her sniffs investigating the crushed beer cans and faded cigarette butts as Andrea got Terry out to the curb. She angled him against her so they both faced the end of the road that dipped into the beginning of a hill that eventually led into one of the newer suburbs. The refuge for those who'd given up on Warren Avenue. But Andrea didn't think about that; rather she lifted her eyes above the shadows, the chipped rooftops, and into the gray-pink that was chasing away the last navy threads of last night.
                "Andrea-"
                "Shhh." Andrea told him gently, an arm around him and a hand on June. Their presence warmed her, but she grew more excited with the warmth that was rising to fill her. The navy was pushed out for the soft blues of a jaybird, the breathless pale yellow of the Baja sands. It was only seconds, until the morning sun announced itself with a full face of tangerine orange. It stretched it's fingers over the avenue, the neighborhood, the whole city. It chased the shadows off and bathed everything anew in its refreshing light.
               Andrea finally had to look away and she squinted at Terry. He turned to her likewise, his expression softer... eyes just as tired and sad. "It's beautiful. And it's over way too quickly."
               "It's enough." Andrea told him, both her arms around his now, leaning her face to smell the week-old coffee and office sweat of his uniform.
               "Not when you have a twelve-hour night to contend with."
               "It's enough," Andrea repeated, locking their eyes. "When we've got people like your dad and you. Determined to shine those rays into the night. Even the darkest ones."


THE END 

'Even in darkness light dawns for the upright, 
for those who are gracious and compassionate and righteous.'
~Psalm 112:4~

Sunday, August 6, 2017

Blue Hour ~ Midnight



'The day is yours, and yours also the night; you established the sun and the moon.
It was you who set all the boundaries of the earth; you mad both summer and winter.'
~Psalms 74:16-17~

               Andrea watched Frank's back, his eyes remaining at the window while she placed the call to the department. It was the third one of the night and he was the same for every one of them. His gaze pierced the pane as a hand stroked the fur between June's ears. Both looking equally lonely.
               Frank without his wife, Andrea thought, twisting a finger in the phone cord. And June without her mate. They're actually able to console each other in a way Terry and I couldn't.
               By the time she'd met Terry, his mother Bonnie had already past away due to a burst appendix that went unchecked. But she'd met the family's two Rottweilers, June and Ward. A match made in Heaven; until some crackhead had used Ward for target practice. Sometimes, Terry wasn't sure who grieved more; his father or June.
               They're not just grieving people though. Andrea lingered with the receiver, looking past Frank's shoulder and out into the night. She longed to see the same avenue that he did. Not the de-spiraling neighborhood of cracked cement, dented trash cans, and a minimum requirement of five deadbolts on your front door. No, she wanted to visit the one with wide open doors and front yards alive with flowers. Where people honked as they passed, or braked to have a chat with a familiar face. Terry had told her about racing bikes with his brother down a golden autumn evening, their parents strolling arm-in-arm far behind them. But no matter his stories, no matter how deep Frank's memories, the truth remained. It no longer existed.
               It existed for Frank. Andrea considered him again, drawing out of her mind mournfully. For Frank, for Bonnie... for Terry.
               The memories were surely alive for others too. After the 60s and all its riots, the old Warren Avenue seemed like all the older generation could talk about. Things were never like this in the old days, they need to get things back to the way they were... Yet, their own words hadn't been enough to make them stay.
               "They're sending a unit out to do a sweep." Andrea finally spoke out, realizing she needed to hang up the phone and get back to her chair beside Frank.
               "We're lucky they're coming at all." Frank grumbled as she sat down.
               "Well, it is their job." Andrea stated. "It was once yours."
               "I'm the only reason they're even driving down here." Frank grueled his knuckles over June's ears. She whined and moved her head over to Andrea's knee. Frank sighed. "Once I'm gone, they'll happily turn their backs on this block. Then it'll just grow, in all directions, too fast for them to turn around and actually do something."
               Andrea's face paled at the thought of Frank being gone. She was only just getting to know him, the stubborn porcupine that he was when it came to new people. When Terry had introduced her, there had been little more then a nod and a 'I hope you at least have some class in you.' Oh yes, there had been speed bumps. Of course, by then, the department had had to retire him.
               Retiring had been hard on Frank. It hadn't been old age, but an old shrapnel injury from Vietnam. The doctors retrieved the few pieces, but they'd already done their damage to his spinal chord. Needless to say of a man who had never let the grass grow under his feet, confinement to a wheelchair had been a harsh adjustment- still was, perhaps. Yet, it didn't slow him down either.
               "You raise more then enough noise to make them care." Andrea reaffirmed to Frank, smiling at the determination his actions always echoed. "And there're are people that still do. Terry's one of them." She rubbed a hand into his shoulder. "He'll watch their backs, you'll see."
               "What've I said about being coddled, Andrea."
               His sternness pushed her back a bit, but Andrea had learned to absorb the blows rather then be knocked down. "Frank-"
               "We all turned our backs," Frank leaned forward, as though to challenge the bars that protected his window. "We let the younger generation get away with too much, let them think that they knew what was best... now it's up to my son and the few alongside him to fix what we couldn't."
               This man... Andrea sighed, nudging June off her knee. "No generation's perfect, Frank."
               "No." Frank agreed, sagging back into the grove of his wheelchair. "Perfect passed away with Bonnie."
               Tears pricked at the edges of her eyes. If you read the Bible long enough, you found that perfect couldn't exist on earth. Her own father would've been a few years older then Frank, if the alcohol hadn't killed him ten years back. Whatever money Mom managed to hide from his addiction, went to her brother, the firstborn of the family. She was given no love, no consideration, and lit out of there when she was sixteen. She had figured it out for herself from there. Without God, she might not have made it.
               How many others haven't... or won't? Andrea found herself asking. She glanced out the window, past and bars and across the street to the abandoned house that faced them. The faint glow from the second floor told her that the users had arrived. Frank had been attempting to find out who the supplier was; no luck. No one was willing to relieve the damage that was being done... no one seemed to care.
               How? How did something fall so far? Worse yet, how did it manage to repeat the same fall, night after night?
               "Andrea," Frank finally looked over at her, his blue eyes faltering under his wrinkled brow. "Do me a favor? Smile."
               The request, while odd from its speaker, made Andrea's lips spread immediately. Frank took it in and his countenance softened. "My heart swelled when my wife did that, smiled. And I see my boy's face perk up every time he thinks about it."
               Andrea hoped that the shadows hid the blush creeping up her cheeks.
               "I want you to realize the special hold you have," Frank went on. "Giving a smile when... you're surrounded by... darker things."
               Andrea eyed this stoic, sweet man, only to be jarred by the melody of breaking glass. June erected her head along with Frank's. Andrea stopped her hand from reaching for her gun.  She kept it close for a reason, but she tried not to think about it. She just held her breath with Frank and June as a car coasted down the avenue. Under the bulbs that were still whole, Andrea caught the glint of the glass bottles before they shattered against the asphalt.
               "How does it come to this?" Andrea shook her head, drawing her thumbnail to her mouth.
               "It's human nature." Frank watched the car vanish, tail lights blinking like mad red eyes in the dark. "People think they can get away with it, if they only show it at night. That's why most come to dread nightfall."
               He paused, then his voice came back, thoughtful and reserved. "I've had to coax frightened people from their barricaded apartments before they starve themselves to death. They count the minutes until the night's over and daylight comes to save them. They think the night holds no hope and no light. But, I always thought different. That the night's full of chances to set things right from the day." He sighed, coming out of his tunnel. "I talk too much."
               The most I've ever heard you talk, period. Andrea hid a chuckle. "And now Terry's out there taking the same chances you once did. He got the chance to meet me, so..." she made a show of smiling at him. "I think you did alright."
               George's face regained some of its guard. "You think I'm justifying my actions to you?"
               "You're explaining them to me, aren't you?" Andrea said, stroking June's head as she begged to be petted. "You did right by Terry. Staying a policeman, putting long hours into the community that he was being raised in. He's following your work because you got him to believe so strongly in it."
               George heard her- his five senses were sharper then most kids still in the neighborhood. But he merely kept his vigil, watching the dark and depressed street. "Another thing about the night that people forget; God made the stars."
               Andrea let their conversation fall to silence. She knew what George meant.

~To Be Continued at Dawn~
 

Friday, August 4, 2017

Blue Hour ~ Dusk




'God made two great lights- the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars. God set them in the expanse of the sky to give light to the earth, to govern the day and the night, and to separate the light from the darkness. And God saw that it was good.'
~Genesis 1:16-18~

               Thugs lied to themselves. They said they were invincible, that fear was an illusion. That's why they lost when met with reality. That was either justice or a bullet. Andrea preferred the latter, but she kept her reality centered on O'Brian's chest. "Go home, O'Brian. Sleep it off."
               His wolf-brown eyes slitted, a scowl showing through his stubble. Andrea kept the steel in her own irises for him to gauge. Would she do it, he was thinking. Andrea was just waiting for him to tempt her, trigger finger pulsing the metal of her .43. O'Brian finally pshawed and shrugged himself into an easier posture. "Let me know when your tune changes, little darlin'. The nights get lonely out here."
               "Find a blanket." Andrea advised. She stayed as she was until he had made his slumbering way to the other side of the street. She didn't drop her guard though. She felt the fellow eyes, watching her from the shadows of the buildings, poles, and fences. More then half of the street lamps were broken or bulb less, shutting Warren Avenue into a darkness that sought to draw in its neighboring blocks. When it came to crime waves of this city, Warren Avenue was the belly of the beast. The drug lords had staked themselves up and down the avenue, the teenagers had claimed their favorite hangout to get wasted and destructive. What decent folk had lived there, had tried to hold on to some semblance of the real Warren Avenue, had left years ago. Yes, the devil had found his roast inside these city limits. And Andrea walked into it every night because she couldn't picture herself anywhere else.
               Curse my deceitful heart. Andrea figured, gun back in her purse, an eye up to the sky. The night was closing on its hazy blues. Her feet carried her fast to the home sandwiched in three doors down. The front was barred, iron bars protecting its wooden ancestor, but she had the key. Pushing the door open- with a relieved prayer- Andrea was met with big paws and a black nose that sniffed at her happily.
               "Evenin' June." Andrea nuzzled the Rottweiler's face to hers, letting the snuggle strike down her nerves. They would never completely leave, but she'd be grateful for that. God had showed her they were an excellent alarm system.
               Andrea took a few steps into Frank's home, glancing through the arch to the front room. The beaten down front of the house usually scared people from seeing the homey and brightly colored interior. The walls were a ripe yellow, the twin couches a well-worn creme by now, with colorful pillows on either end of their cushions. It was all illuminated thanks to mismatched floor lamps, but Andrea wouldn't nitpick. It was her favorite room. Why wouldn't Frank and Terry keep it lit?
               "Frank?" Andrea called out to where the room journeyed into the kitchen. June scampered off from her to meet the old general (only in nature) just as he came wheeling through the archway. He raised his stern, clean-shaven chin at her, eyes like an ice ray on her. Andrea bent down and kissed his cheek anyway. "That's where you were hiding, handsome."
               Frank gave her a glare, rubbing her lipstick off with his thumb. "Terry's going to be livid with you."
               "He'll be more relieved that he didn't have to worry about you." Andrea countered him, working the buttons on her coat. Frank rolled his wheelchair past her with a grunt. "I take care of myself."
               There was pride in that statement and rightfully so. A veteran of Vietnam, a devout husband and, for the past twenty-nine years, Frank had been the officer to know and trust. Terry even told her how he had passed up a promotion to commissioner three times to stick to his street beat. But his sense of justice and tough love demeanor spread his influence farther then the ten blocks he had canvased. It was his advise you sought and the his opinion you trusted. He certainly wasn't one to ask for the attention, but God had thrown it at him anyway. Despite Frank's many grumbles and silent glares.
           "Yes, you take care of yourself." Andrea swiped beneath her bangs and across her forehead dramatically, hanging her coat on the kitchen wall. "Good thing. Because I'm not cleaning your melting pot of dirty dishes-"
               There was a frantic scream. Gun blasts, one, two, three... six of them. Then June's mad barking over the fierce peeling of tires that shrieked off into the startled night outside the house. It all came through the wall and into Andrea's ears, no holds bar in their emotional volume. Two months ago... heck, a week ago, she would've run to Frank's side, making sure he was okay. Now, she simply closed her eyes, stilled her mind and body. The night, Lord. It begins.


~To Be Continued At Midnight~